MILKXAPPLE

2009-07-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

officially moved over to
:D

2009-07-11T22:52:00.002+08:00

Dont know why i feel such antipathy towards you.
it's making me give out weird, cryptic messages to people.

I can hold a grudge for a long time.

okay anyway.
go visit milkxapple.wordpress.com

:D

2009-07-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

There's no black or white; only shades of grey.

i wrote alot of stuff but i deleted it.
seems so stupid to just continue.

i realise that i dont mean alot of things literally.
and i dont take alot of things literally, too.

stop thinking everything's about you.

so conceited.

2009-07-08T19:16:00.003+08:00

Have already told myself not to care.
why the hell am i still so obsessed?

i will your name on a piece paper.
i will fold that paper into sevenths and and tear it into half.
It would be hard to tear but i will try my best.

When the next morning comes and i wake up,
i will open my eyes and see it beside me;
Not in half, not torn, not folded.
your name will be there right in the middle of the paper,
like nothing ever happened.

"I'll tear it." , i will then tell myself.
"if i see it i'll tear it. Again and again, even if it's useless.
I'll tear it even if it hurt my thumbs.
Its good for me."

and the cycle repeats.

2009-07-08T18:36:00.002+08:00

Wicked.
What you're getting now isnt even a fifth of what you gave me.
You never had to get through those damned nights thinking and crying.
i bear grudges.

went out with sijia, sy and beryl on youth day. :D
went to watch ice age. nice.

watched transformers the night before.
i like it leh. i think Optimus Prime very cool. :D

made window paints and took neoprints. :D
the machine kinda sucks cos there was an error and one part of the
prints came out orange and blank.

cant they invest in machines with more quality?!

Still in holiday mood.
guys in my class all trying to moonwalk now. ROFL. so cute.

:D

2009-07-04T00:24:00.002+08:00

Not true.

You are what they say your are;
because that is how you present yourself to them.

so why say such good things about yourself?
wait for them to tell.

If you really are, you would'nt tell.

2009-07-03T19:31:00.002+08:00

i think _ and _ are really cute. :D
but i wont tell them, incase they haolian or diao me about it.
HAHAHAHA.
so cute. :3

Omg i just realised alot of things happened in class.
got alot of class gossips lo. ._.
i think that _ very poor thing. D:
and _ v.cute for not knowing what to do. :D

i'm starting to like my class. :D

2009-06-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

Suddenly so gentle?

maybe just to use.

2009-06-28T15:14:00.003+08:00

so cute. :3

ytd went out with jas and sy to catch Drag me to hell.
Freaked me out. .__.
watch until halfway, jianxing smsed me "im washing my pika now. "
LOLOL.
i hate the crescendo. ._.
i hate the silent parts.
cos at the end of it, something scary will come out.
didnt finish my popcorn cos i was busy getting scared. -.-
i laughed when the man danced. :D

jasmine keep going " later _ gum you like the old lady in the movie. "

._.
disgusting.

i cannot stand the pika's picture.
SO CUTE.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA. :D :D

2009-06-27T01:16:00.003+08:00

YES !

Yes !

You're gone.
Vanish.

Like you, i know magic too.
you made that permanent spell.
and i broke that charm.

gone.

Dont visit !

:D

2009-06-21T12:49:00.001+08:00

first you say you do,
then you say you dont.

make up your mind leh. -.-

anyway, i saw a guy wearing stockings today!! :O

2009-06-20T19:13:00.002+08:00

Like the breeze.
Here; gone.

alone is not working out well for me.
but i like it. ._.

sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night,
panting and sweating because of a dream i cant remember.
i try to remember but only fragments of it comes up.
i feel empty. like there's a big hole in me.

it feels like what happens when you exhale and exhale without inhaling. (try.)
its painful but at the same time, not really.
but it's different from being breathless.
look around; it's dark, its late.
i go to the kitchen, grab a drink and then go back to sleep.

i dont know what's happening. .__.

Finished my math homework today. :D
band on monday. :D

i think it wont be the same.

it's going to rain soon. :O

2009-06-15T12:56:00.002+08:00

:D

i havent done any homework at all.
quite little homework.
i only have to trouble about maths.
and not to mention Ms chan forgot to give us back our journals.

how are we supposed to do journals + newspaper article like that sia. -.-

i can finish english and art within a day. :D
i forgot what homework i have for chinese. :O
maths will take me afew days. D:

i like holidays. :D
but only if it has band.

i've got loads of stuff on my waiting list. :x
like going to vivo with jas.
someone please get out of the japan trip . let me in. D:
just one more.
one more person.
and i'll get in alr. D:

I've been getting alot of missed calls recently.
maybe it's mr lee, trying to tell me that i'm in the group alr.
dammit. -.-!

Oh. and i like people to randomly message me, whether on msn or using sms. :D
cos it shows me that they actually think about me.
i can think of..
5 people that actually do that. :D!

-happy-

2009-06-14T13:26:00.002+08:00

So close.
but with good luck, we didnt meet.

i think there's no difference.

sat was fun. :D
luckily we didnt ask any guys to come with us. :D
nxt time i'll plan an outing with everyone, okay? :D

omg.
i suddenly thought of.
the ridiculous times i had with 6E . :D

like how eugene asked me to go his house and help him iron his shirt early in the morning, long time ago. -.-!
and how i cooked for him also.

and how we went to singyee's house to watch movie and cooked damn lots of maggie.
her dog was damn cute. :D

how we went to minyi's house to watch movie also. LOLOL.

and went skipping at my void deck.

and how we went to sabrina's house to play twister.

how we went to travis's house and zickery played with his chair, fell down and cut himself.
and how my bandage suffocated his poor leg. LOL.

how we stayed back after school, hanging out behind the stairs playing truth or dare.
(i rmb i wanted to stay cos i wanted to see __. :D )

how we mixed mamee with mashed potato.

and had remedial lessons combined with 6G. it was on mondays.
and it was beside the band room. aft the remedial, i'm always v.sad cos cannot see _. D:

<3

Okay.
when i get the photos from minyi, maybe i'll post them up. :D

2009-06-10T17:37:00.004+08:00

-smiles weakly-
i dont like people who don't practice what they preach.

Dont make yourself sound like some godly character. ~.~

You know those times where you suddenly feel very lost?

when you see something and your heart suddenly feels hollow?
and you just freeze there, looking at that thing, thinking; "what is this supposed to mean? ",
then you decided not to care but can't?

its exactly how i felt, when i looked.

cardboard mind.
cardboard heart.

so empty.

2009-06-08T20:28:00.001+08:00

-Tosses hair-
-Hands on hips-
-pouts-

i want monehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

;Not like that's working.

2009-06-08T10:31:00.002+08:00

You say that;
but do you know what does it means?

:D
thanks to those that cared.

please don't pity me.
it's half the reason why i despise crying in public.
its like literally screaming " LOOK AT ME. CARE FOR ME. "

when you cry, even those that dont give a rat's fart about you starts to care.
because of those tears.

i'm making guesses. and usually my guesses are correct.
i'm using back my old phone now. and those smses are still there.
the one you sent;
i looked at it and i knew i should'nt mind, because it's already over.
the last standing flag wasn't mine. So even if you fulfilled it, what's the point?

2009-06-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

This is so pathetic.
i'm such a terrible daughter.
i've lost those photos, memories, contacts.
its like i'm throwing money away.

yeah it's my fault for not keeping it well.
not being careful enough.
but if i ever find out who took it, i'll bring you to hell personally.

i really didnt want to.
i had to hide.
dont want their last memory of me to be so pathetic.

i hate this.
crying in the public is so attention seeking.
so weak.
i hate it.
i despise it.

I'm sorry.

2009-06-02T21:16:00.002+08:00

we both know it,
and she knew.
so why did she?

i've got what i've always looked up to,
but at what cost?

i kind of don't like this.

and keep your eyes to yourself, asshole.

2009-06-01T22:18:00.002+08:00

You told me to move on,
but where do i go?

took loads of photos today. :D
-happy-
oh. playing the siren whistle was damn paiseh cos it was spoilt. -.-
i'm not finished with weishen yet lo.
while taking the photos i kept poking him to make sure he smiled. LOL.
but all the pictures turned out with either one of our faces cut . =X

oh; i find myself not liking more and more people.
but at least they are kind of tolerable.
of course, i dislike for a different reason.
strangely, they are all girls. ;O

And the crystals on my phone are falling one by one.
i'm going to remove all soon.
i kind of liked it. it was shiny. ):

2009-05-31T13:17:00.001+08:00

i always feel at ease when i'm with you.
not a least bit of awkward-ness. :D
i really really want to go japan with you.

no wonder you're my best friend. :D

2009-05-30T23:38:00.003+08:00

2009-05-30T22:02:00.002+08:00

oh yeah.
The bigger toms fell today and it hit my leg. ;O
it's damn painful please.
there's one super big bruise just above my knee cap,
and its swollen and hurts alot.

actually after the toms hit me i was still standing.
then it just hurt damn lot and i realised my other leg was tangled with the bongo stand.
i didnt want it to fall too,
so i fell on my butt anyway. -.-

2009-05-30T18:27:00.002+08:00

had band today. :D
hope we will be okay.

i dont know.
recently i lack of opinions so i dont really have anything to write.
and i dont like to write about my life like a big big time schedule,
so i wont.

everything feels so empty nowadays.
i only still wince when i hear those names together.
other than that it's nothing.
smile like everyone is looking.
then cower behind when the my show stops.
and lie on that bed while those sharp intakes of breath, hiccups takes over.

its like becoming a routine.
one prick, and it bursts. after the drama it's back to normal.
like nothing even happened.
and no one will ever know.

Oh. so morbid.

2009-05-29T21:20:00.001+08:00

hectichetic.

band again tmr.
did i mention i lost my wallet?
and i'm planning a surprise on 5/6/09. :D

2009-05-23T21:28:00.002+08:00

ohoh today was fun. :D

went to school for badminton then tried table tennis too.
then went to my mum's salon cos jx wanted to cut hair.
i washed his hair. :O!

then talked alot alot.

tution tmr. D:
what do i do?

2009-05-22T20:17:00.002+08:00

OH I FORGOT TO MENTION.
i got 83% for lit. :D
but quite useless.

and a b3 for english.

81 for maths.

i'm waiting for my class tests to pull up my sci mark.
my class test is quite good so it's okay. :D

dont know which _ put geog and sci paper in the same day.
and the whole class had to spam geog cos _ never really taught us anything.

just passed my dnt cos nvr really revise. -.-
chinese was okay but i can't rmb the overall marks.

please don't think you're the only one feeling that way.

2009-05-22T20:00:00.002+08:00

better. ._.

back from camp.
i am kind of black right now. -.-
they only let us shower twice during the whole camp.
which was terrible.

my class's male instructor damn __. wth.
waste time talking to girls.
i liked the flying fox most. i kept saying it as firefox.
sijia also. -.-

3 points to make.

i dont like people that spam insect repellents in the huts.
i dont like girly girls.
i dont like the smell of face cream.

i dont care about you anymore. -.-

and to the another You there.
you probably wont be reading this cos you dont even know about this.
i dont know why i keep getting close with the wrong people,
even when others tell me to beware of them.
dosen't matter.
whatever i've told you already expired.
i don't hate you.

just because of __?
what the heck?

2009-05-15T20:30:00.004+08:00

Just had parade rehearsal just now.
tired like mad.
walao i barely passed my science.
which is a very bad thing. that never happened before.

i hope.
it wont happen again.

ohoh and today aft sch me, nicola and rebecca went to jp to lunch.
then went to comics connection. cant find what i wanted. ._.

OMG jack just told me smth that made me so touched.

Sec 2 camp IS COMING says:
nice drumming

yay. ;)

2009-05-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

Disgusting.

and you wonder why i raise my eyebrows at you.

2009-05-09T18:07:00.001+08:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.

An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.

You are also good at remembering information and convincing someone of your point of view.

A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.

You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

I'm convincing?
HAHA. beware. :D

You Are Seductive and Ruthless

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.

You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.

But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

o.o

2009-05-02T15:35:00.002+08:00

i'm damn bored.

.__.
i dont really study.
not when i left my textbooks in the class cardboard. -.-
havent finish watching Code geass.

i cant wait for exams to be over and band to resume, please. !
i miss band. ):

on another completely different note,
i'm quite happy because i brought a cute small sock for my handphone. :D

2009-04-30T19:12:00.002+08:00

flawless smooth speech; persuasive and logical.
saying the right things and the right time instead of keeping quiet.
comforting actions.

what more can you get?
omgomg. lelouch is kinda hot. in everyway. :D

2009-04-30T16:07:00.004+08:00

If i pass my chinese, it's luck.

HCL paper pwned me. ._.
anyway i think some people are pretending to be pretending.
they are pretending to be fake.
i dont know whats the big deal with pretending to be vulnerable.
went to school on wed with Jas. :D
spammed sweets in school. i think some girls didnt got the chance to take any.
LOL.
OH YA. i showed my drawing of Lelouch to jx. :D
and i got the thumbdrive with code geass epis inside from him too. :D

i've been off fb recently. -.-
and jotham is nice. :D

today i saw junwei rubbing his butt against elvin/junhao. .__.
and ___ has a very, very prominent accent. ;X

And recently i lack of topics to talk about with __.

i think its damn boring and frustrating to read this post because it has alot of missing words.
which is good.
askmeaskme. :D

oh yeah.
i have 2 ulcers on my upper lip, 2mm apart.

today morning they joined together and became one.

2009-04-30T16:02:00.002+08:00

YOU. stop it.
i can barely wait; tempting.
my desires are merely at the tips of my fingers.
maybe it wont come so soon,
but i know.
and even if i dosent comes, i know.
i know, and thats what matters.

2009-04-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

LOL.

this hideous blogskin is the result of me being bored. and trying to change.
zomg. hideous.
at first i drew pink hearts. then it was too pinkish.
and i changed it to this. ~.~

got any nice patterns that can keep repeating one?
LOL.
will change when i'm free.
now i'm damn tired. -.-

2009-04-25T23:20:00.001+08:00

want to change skin. but lazy. -.-

2009-04-25T17:26:00.001+08:00

yes yes, go now.
yes yes, say goodbye.

and dont come back. :D

2009-04-25T16:48:00.002+08:00

i'm happy. :D
i realised that my mood is always being affected by responses.
especially some people's.

i want to try and watch code geass. but v.little vids avaliable. and buffer damn slowly.
and i'm so proud. i did some beading again and i did THIS in only 2 days:

it's damn hard to make lo. -.-
i have another shorter one. green and black one. LOL.

i can do this kinda stuff to sell lor.
then i will be like, damn rich. :D

i used to make this kinda stuff in primary school. :D
and i love this:

it's kinda rusty but it's the nicest souvenir i brought back from disneyland like damn long ago.
i thought i lost it. and i found it back today. :D
very pretty. :3
but it costs like, $2 . made fresh from a vending machine near the "it's a small world" place.
thats a place where everything is very small. :D

and i was spamming maths just now. just finished only. thus the background of the pic. LOL.

:D

2009-04-19T12:50:00.003+08:00

:D

just came back from tution.
transferred to janice and sijia's class. cos the teacher more strict also. :D
quite heypi now.
and i think tom felton (draco malfoy) is damn hot. :D

:D

2009-04-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

i have. 2 fears now.
but i'm still smiling.
and i cannot tell anyone about the fears.
not even you.

2009-04-15T20:55:00.002+08:00

Dammit. .__.

whatever he's trying to do. his method is proving to be effective.
i'm falling for it.

or maybe he's not even trying to do anything.
omgomg. ;__;
4 weeks without band.
confinement to class activities.
and i dont really want to go band store aft sch also cos there's nothing to do.
i want to learn timpani but no one to teach.

omgggggg.
and this confinement has made me damn distracted from my usual self.
#1 and #2 trying to distract me.

OHYAAAAAAAA. cool stuff.
i brought a $1 mini bunny from the bookshop today.
damn cute. :3

and i feel so appreciative (?) today. :D
so i shall thank people simultaneously. (incoherent sentences)

thanks to Elvin, Kaiyan, Yixin, Jack, LimBin, Jotham for teaching me maths. :D
and to Nicola, Junwei, Jianhong, Janice for being nice to me. :D
To Sun zhong, for saving me when i forgot to bring storybook. =X
To Junwei, for trying to share porn websites with me. (but i dont need it hor. ;X)
To yonglay, for accompanying me to take paper bag today. :D
To Janice, for lending me calculator during tution. :D

omgomg still got alot. but i forgot. .__.

k i'm really paranoid now.
i'm sorry if i talk to you and i offended you. ;X
cos i was being nervous.

2009-04-12T21:03:00.002+08:00

OMGOMG.
i'm so inspired to become a ____. :D
askme askme. for the reason. and i'll tell you why. :D
i keep replaying that vid. and it makes me all soft inside. :D
thus the happy faces. :D

:D
:D
:D

2009-04-11T13:27:00.001+08:00

I am attracted to long fingers.

omgomg. such fetishes. ;O

2009-04-11T12:38:00.002+08:00

dont know why people want to say that.
they know it's not true. -.-

omg cool. :D
ytd went to badminton at void deck with jas and sy.
then decided it was too windy so went to the stadium.

saw sy's sis and jx there. :D

(OMG SQUAREBOOB ARRIVES!! O.O!!!!!)

okay. then quite funny.
played with jasmine's friends then with jx and sy.
omg weird. but fun.
went home earlier than the others with jas. cos need to go out. :D

fun. :D

2009-04-10T11:57:00.003+08:00

WEDNESDAY WAS FUNNNNNNNNN. :D

aft school, managed to escape from sy .
went to jp with jas, mag, wanqi and kelila to buy her present.

went to eat lunch first. i went in KFC. then went out. ._.
then cant find any other place to eat. wanted to eat SHOE! :D
mag and me kept talking about eating shoes. crunchy heels.
then finally went back kfc to eat. -.-

when we were eating we were discussing about whether sy was angry with us.
cos we leave her alone with sf in sch. -.-

went to buy a mini-saxo. then the auntie was scoffing at us cos we abit not enough moneh. -.-
then went down to make a cake at the basement.
we took the longggggg escalator down and were playing and running on the escalator.
LOL. i ran then i turned back. and i saw wanqi and mag running down and they almost knocked onto me. -.-

designing the cake was zomg fun. :D
me and mag spam the cake with alot of cream.
jasmine and wanqi was like "NO. STOP ALREADY. DROP THAT. "
LOLOL. :D

and and while other designed i kept playing with the baby(with the mother) that's decorating
beside us. :D
i took a secret picture of it!

OUR NICEST NICEST CAKE:

:D
they went to give the auntie the cake. then got another grp of girls went likE
"EH SEE THEIRS SO NICE" and the auntie gave the O.O?!?! face LOL.

omgomg i hear someone practicing clarinet/flute now.
maybe it's jasmine. :D

sy asking me to go for capt's ball at sch tmr.
should i!?

but got phobia liao leh, since last time the ball bounced on my head. -.-
haha. :D wed was funfunfun.

2009-04-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

Band bonding today. :D

balloon day.
must thank melo, jotham and jiawei for blowing up damn lots of balloons.
i took home and pink one. :D

i think this bonding day is quite nice. but short. :D

2009-04-06T21:03:00.002+08:00

i realised i'm really good at...

haha okay. prolly should'nt say cos it will bring disharmony .

2009-04-06T19:52:00.001+08:00

-stabs self-

my tongue feels so dry.
my fingers feel so cold.

omg. maybe jiawei passed his fever to me. ):

2009-04-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

whats with those abbreviations. -.-

2009-04-05T09:39:00.002+08:00

wl. omg feel so lethargic.

must be jianxing's influence. HAHA.
i need to complete alooooooooot of things by tmr.
and and the tution staff dont let me change timing for this week. tsk. -.-

havent done CME proj.
havent done PW webpage.
havent done the cloth thingy.
havent done the NE noticeboard.

omgggggggg. ~.~

life without band is even more pressurizing.

2009-04-04T18:06:00.003+08:00

It's true.

forget it.
i posted something long.
but i realise it's useless.

2009-04-04T13:08:00.002+08:00

I wonder if.. =X

went to sakae aft sch with jx, jas, aiyin, mag, hn, sy and wanqi. :D
i got the seat beside the belt. LOL.
then i can spam alot of food. :D

ate too much.
when a row of salmon sushi came we just spammed like mad. LOLOL
the red plates were good. :D

i think sy was shy.
then she didnt eat anything at first, until jas forced her to.
LOLOL.
played overture with chopsticks. and chucky also.
LOL i hit damn loud.
then it stopped at jx's solo cos hard to continue.

jx and wanqi can whip menus out of their back! :O
aft paying then we went off.
hn and wq went into the toiliet and we never saw them next.. LOL
jx and aiyin went back sch for alumni practice.
then i went home, :D
jas, sy and mag stayed cos their friends and sy's sis was at the badminton court there.

aft i went home i drew a picture.
it was damn nice.
then i coloured it.
now it sucks. =X

i think i should go and learn more drawing so that i can express
the stuff i want to say more clearly.

don't like to use words.

and i realise i'm talking less frequently in class now. ;X
and closer to janice.

which is kinda good cos.
i don't like to stick around with a group of friends wherever i go.
i only like to stick around with close friends. :D

2009-04-04T11:39:00.002+08:00

Cramps. ow.

i hate liars.
If people can't do what they promise, they should'nt promise at all.
it dosent matters if others care or not,
cos it reflects on your attitude and show me what kind of person you are.

people notice.
and they realise.
maybe you were'nt that great afterall; they'd say.
and they will leave you one by one.

the war is starting.
i've seen what is yours and now they belong to me.
but you don't realise.

2009-04-01T09:31:00.002+08:00

Today morning i almost fainted.

i stepped into the toilet and suddenly there were black patches.
.__.

i think for Fuhua anniversary, percussion wont be having enough marching drums (or cymbals).
but everyone will have to practice.
being physically weak is not an excuse. ~.~

i suddenly feel so. demanding.
like what i have now is not enough.

i forgot to bring everything related to maths to school today.
i think i'll have to work on myself first. -.-

i feel a need to push people to work harder;
to push myself to work harder.

adverse effect.
encouraging words dont affect me at all.

my head feels dizzy. ._.
hope i dont faint or anything.

2009-03-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

It feels so nice now.

Silence. And nothing is disrupting it.

4 weeks.
i think i'll manage to forget it.

2009-03-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

i hope you die.
really.

very unfair of me to feel this way.
but too bad. things happened at the wrong time for you.
i was pissed off. and it made me more angry.

silver.

silver.
silver.
silver.
silver.
silver.

When they say "you've tried your best"
it's so wrong. it's not my best. i was panicking.
i fumbled at parts and i lost my heart.
i know i can do better.

how can it be the best, when it's not to our goal.
it's only a silver.

they are all lying, when they say we did a good job.
silver. how good can a silver be?

Rubbish.
Not good enough.
there were alot of comments today.
from gena, james, etc.etc.
not good.

This is so depressing.
and to make it worse, some people don't care.
they pretend like they care.
they only dont want to be critisized.

ridiculous.
you can see their reactions. it's so real.
they dont give a damn. they only say they do in words.

what effort have they put in to help?
i never saw them help. they never attempted to help.
Not knowing is not a reason. if you are nice enough you'd try to help.

they dont really feel dissapointed cos they never put in real effort.
and some are proud to admit it.

it's to painful to realise some people don't really care.
such small things mean alot to me.
my heart fell then i heard about yongxiang's fake msg.
and i was so happy when i heard it was unreal.

so happy.
but that happiness short-lived.

it's so tragic when u know who to blame but u can't blame them.
because you have faults too.

2 years.
so far away.
i dont think we'll make it.

2009-03-28T12:37:00.002+08:00

sick.
didnt go for band today. D;

if i move my head alot i get dizzy.
this sucks. ._.

SYF in 2 days. zomg zomg.
nice time to get sick. ._.

2009-03-20T19:51:00.003+08:00

Taken from Gelasia cos it seems interesting.

All 21 people must do unless they dont have a blog.
Write the 21 names of people you can think of.
1. jianxing
2. sy
3. jas
4. kelila
5. rebecca
6. qiyu
7. vincent
8. zhian
9. marion
10. yixin
11. yonglay
12. weishen
13. magdelene
14. huini
15. wanqi
16. melo
17. delia
18. kaiyan
19. yifan
20. chienwei
21. jotham

how did u meet 7? [vincent]
band?

what would u do if you and 15 have not met? [wanqi]
then. then. something will happen. don't know eh.

what would u do if both 20 and 1 had dated? [jianxing & chien wei]
dont know. HAHA.
they are pure.

have u ever seen 17 cry? [delia]
yeah. =X

would 4 and 16 make a good couple? [kelila & melo]
;O
no.

do you think 11 is attractive?[yonglay]
YEA. like, super duper.
i like his eyelashes lei, how.
someone go steal his eyelashes for me please. D;

what is 2's favourite colour? [sy]
hm. black?

when was the last time u talked to 9? [marion]
dont know. quite long ago i guess.

what language does 8 speak? [zhian]
hokkien, chinese and eng.

who is 13 going out with? [magdelene]
dont rmb anyone.

what grade is 16 in? [melo]
sec2.

would u ever date 17?[delia]
sure LOL. :3
as a friend.

where does 18 live? [kaiyan]
dont know?

what is the best thing about 4? [kelila]
SHE'S CRAZEHHHHHH. :D

what would you like to tell 10 right now? [yixin]
COME TAG ME LA, TSK. LOL.

what is the best thing about 2o? [chien wei]
he's the nicest sec4 lor.

have you ever kissed 2? [sy]
NO. -shudders-

whats the best memory of 5? [rebecca]
there's this time where.
she guesses who i'm dreaming about in my dreams
LOL. i like.

when is the next time you are going to meet 4? [kelila]
tmr. :D

how is 7 different from 6? [Vincent & qiyu]
vincent has an ulcer on his lips that make his lips look like sausage and qiyu has long eyelashes.
HAHAHAHA.

is 2 pretty? [sy]
HAHAH ok la.

what was your first impression of 15? [wanqi]
chiobu. :D

how did u meet 3? [jas]
band.

is 15 your best friend? [wanqi]
nope. rofl.

do you hate 12? [weishen]
HAHAHA NO. he's the nicest 豆.

have you seen 18 in the last month? [kaiyan]
yea

when was the last time u saw 16? [melo]
ytd .

have you been to 5's house? [rebecca]
no. but i heard she has 2 bedrooms. D;

when is the next time u will see 10? [yixin]
nxt monday

are u close to 11? [youglay]
avg?

have u been to the movies with 4? [kelila]
no. D;

have u gotten in trouble with 8? [zhian]
yes and no.
i've gotten him into trouble before. LOL

would u give 19 a hug? [yifan]
yea. :D

when have u lied to 3? [jas]
LOL. long time ago. about something minor like not wearing shoes when i'm supposed to.

is 11 good at socialising? [yonglay]
YA. VERY VERY.

do u knw a secret about 8? [zhian]
dont know if thats a secret. =\

describe the relationship between 12 and 18? [weishen & kaiyan]
dont think they even know each other.

what is the best thing about your friendship with 9? [marion]
SHE'S MY BEST TEMPURA OK.
i can be as _ as i want infront of her.

what's the worst thing about 6? [qiyu]
LOL. don't know.

have you ever had a crush on 12? [weishen]
HAHAHAH. NO.

how long have u known 2? [sy]
4th year alr ah.

does 11 have a bf? [yonglay]
NO LOL.

have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? [jianxing]
~~HAHA YEAYEA. I WANT TO SEE IF HIS POX WILL BURST.~~
no.

has 21 met ur mom? [jotham]
no.

how did u meet 11? [yonglay]
class.

did u ever accidentally physically hurt 3? [jas]
LOL ya i trip oftenly in buses. =\

do u live close to 7? [vincent]
dont know where he live.
dont want to know. LOL

what is 8's fav food? [zhian]
HUMAN MEAT. esp girl's one.

what kind of car does 1 have? [jianxing]

- ♥ ; APPLExMILK :: says:
*what car u want

:-O ~- Precognition -~ :-O says:
*I'm not interested in car ..
*The proest car available
*Highest class one

have u ever travelled anywhere with 9? [marion]
malacca? :D

if u gave 14 $100 what would he/she spent it on? [huini]
buying cats? LOLOL.

2009-03-20T19:40:00.003+08:00

i get bored easily. D;

ytd was the exchange. quite nice.
i panicked. =X
then for the sectionals, went for the snare one.
HAHA. i think quite weird.
there were 6 of us.
2 of them are SLs. 1 is band major.
4 sec4s, 1 sec3.

i feel so young.
so. youthful.
so- so- 13. LOL.

they talked about stuff that i didnt know.
then after awhile i had to leave.
left the gong at the stage. then went back to take.
and the lorry left. -.-

went to the bus instead.
hallucinations.

went back to sch.
lunched. then played capt's ball. :D
i kept passing to the wrong people lo.
then. then. the ball bounced on my head. damn. -.-

OHOH. and also right. ___ is ~~hot~~ handsome. :D
but so sad. i dont like. LOL.

and just now. jx showed me his pox thru webcam.
SO BLACK. look like mole. ;O

i get bored of fb's games easily.
and i lost my USB cable lei. damn. cannot upload photos. D;

2009-03-18T00:21:00.001+08:00

i suspect something.
HAHAHHA.
but. quite impossible.
also quite possible.
i don't know lei. HAHA.

if its true then.
i will get shocked and it will be damn funny.

2009-03-17T22:36:00.002+08:00

all my posts kena strike out. -.-
don't know why.

ah. zomg.
today was tiring.
exchange on thurs. :3

today ernest and jotham became mini percussionist.
so cute. :3
__ so cute.
but noone agrees with me. wl. -.-

stayed back to play capt's ball.
zomg weijie fly here fly there.
i didnt pay attention.
so alfred and elsen hit me in the stomach when i was right infront of them. ow.
guilty. ._.

2009-03-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

oh ya. my results. :3

EL - 18/25 A2
MA- 38/50 A1
SCI- 39.5/50 A1
D&T- 33/50 A1
GEO- 25.5/50 C6
HCL - 61/100 B4

lit is unknown.
damn geog and hcl. LOL.

oh ya. recently i think i have a new _.
but _ is so h_ and f_. i think i'm being very stupid for _ _.
even yonglay and janice says so.

i dont even know why i _ _.
but i feel all weird and giggly when i see _.
wl. so weird. ~.~

k i go finish hana kimi now.
taiwan ver. quite weird LOL.
COS COS. wuzun keep sleeping. -.-
not natural la, the acting.

:3

2009-03-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

zomggg.
i have a painful ulcer on my lower lip.
i don't have ulcers often, it's rare for me.
therefore it must be karma for teasing vincent's ulcer. D;

okay today was quite ok.
hm. only that. i saw some people bringing children's clothes home.
HAHAHA.

halfway thru sectionals me and jas escaped to eat lunch. -.-
i like _ 's permanently shocked look HAHA.

i don't know why.
i always feel damn happy when i go to rebecca's blog LOL.
zomg. -.-
weird feeling.

i like pucca with stawbeli feelings.
damn nice. :3

~~and jianxing conned me into buying him jagabee because of his chicken pox. D;~~

2009-03-10T20:42:00.000+08:00
i should REALLY stop smiling to myself whenever i'm alone.

-.-!

2009-03-10T12:46:00.005+08:00
i'm sick like shit.
so i'm going to do quizzes to idle my time.

1.Five random facts about me.
(1) i like silence.
(2) i'm kinda good in maths. and sci.
(3) i dont like lit. -.-
(4) i just cut my hair on sunday LOL.

2.Fashion or food?
hmmmmmmm. both.

3.Ferrari or lamborghini?
i want jaguar. -.-

4.Date in a park or restaurant?
park

5.What's your favourite sport?
er. -.-
don't know.

6.Name 3 hobbies.
reading. drawing. stoning.

7.Macdonald or KFC?
kfc. LOL. mac eat until damn sian. -.-!

8.Got any musical talents?
perc. <3

9.List 10 buddies.
1.jasmine
2.siyuan
3.janice
4.yixin
5.Jianxing
6.wanqi
7.rebecca
8.qiyu
9.kerry :3
10.yonglay

10.Does 3&7 get along well?(rebecca & janice)
dont think they know each other, HAHA.

11.Do you think 5&8 will stead?(Jianxing & qiyu)
NO. they are straight people.

12.Have i kissed 1?(jasmine)
no. -.-

13.Describe 10,
-__-

14.Do you love 6(wanqi) ?
ya. LOL. BUT SHE DUN LOVE ME EH.
SHE LOVE ____. LOL.

15.Will i date 7 (rebecca)?
YA TOTALLY. she is my laoma ok!

16.How bout 4(yixin)?
she might be taken. =X

17.Am i close to 2(siyuan)?
ya quite

18.Am i happy with my life?
hm. quite

19.Lastly have you ever cried over a losing relationship?
friendship ar. got.

:D

[1] Who was your last phone call with?
- mum.

[2] Where was your default picture taken?
- sketchbook

[3] What's your second name?
- applexmilk?

[4] When is your birth date?
- 26 aug.

[5] What is your current mood?
- er. don't know.

[6] What color shirt are you wearing?
- blue.

[7] Do you love your mom as much as you love your dad?
- haha yeah. love them both. :D

[8] Do you have a crazy side?
- maybe. ?

[9] have you ever had a near death experience?
- ya. cos of some crazy stuff i did when i was younger. -.-
zi bi gui.

[10] Something you do a lot?
- get sick.

[11] Angry at anyone?
- ya. -.-

[12] Fav . month ?
- nov. or aug.

[13] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
- er. jotham's friend. LOL

[14] When was the last time you cried ?
- hmm..

[15] When was the last time you meet the doctor?
- haha i'm supposed to see one today.

[16] If you could have one super power what would it be?
- time control.
(this is because i'm talking to jx now. LOL)

[17] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
- the collar bones.
WOI DON'T JUDGE ME OK. =X

[18] What do you usually BUY from 7-11?
- hm. dont usually go there.
but definately not condom right. -.-

[19] Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
- sleeping. :D

[20] Who are you missing?
- my classmates. :D

[21] Favorite TV show?
- er. don't have one currently.
except xfamily, i guess.

[22] Do you still watch kiddy movies?
- YA. I LOVE SPONGEBOB LOL.

[23] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
- neither.

[24] Whats your favorite smell?
- -ahem-
i have something in mind but it's not exactly pg13.

[25] Describe your life in one word
- woohoo.

[26] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
- haha no. but quite interesting.

[27] Ever kissed on the beach?
- no.

[28] What are you thinking about right now?
- what to write for this lo. -.-

[29] What should you be doing?
- in school.

[30] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
- can't rmb.

[31] What are you currently listening to?
- the msn's ringing thingy.-.-

[32] Do you like working in the yard?
- dont have a yard.

[33] Plans for the night?
- walao what kind of horny quiz is this LOLOL.

[34] Would you ever like to sky dive?
-might be fun.

[35] What is your natural hair color?
- slightly brown.

[36] Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- jianxing. HAHA.
HE AND HIS CUTE BLISTERS -.-!!

2009-03-08T08:50:00.003+08:00
:D

ytd went for tutoring.
then the tutor said he'll treat us to sakae if we get gold. LOL.

went for lunch with jas and wanqi.
then talked about unhealthy stuff, LOL.
the seat i choose had a flattened mini cockroach at the table. wl. -.-

went home.
played on fb. :D
then slept.

2009-03-06T23:58:00.002+08:00
i just realised that.
there's actually alot of minor stuff that can make me damn happy. :D
and i was correct.
it did happen. >__>

2009-03-06T19:22:00.002+08:00
wl. i dont like people that usually talk to me to suddenly ignore me.

like, once they've attained my attention, they dont want it anymore.
and they shun me aside.
oh shucks. i hate this feeling lo.
i wonder if this is why __ also _ _ ___. ._.

k ignore this.
i dont know when it was, but someday in this week, jeremy brought his violin to school.
damn cool. he played canon in D damn fast. wl. grade 7 leh. zomg. ._.

too pro to be true.

i think violin players quite cool. :D

andand. today quite fun. haha.
went for band. then. weird stuff happened.
=\
went for sectionals and qiyu didnt come. -.-

then went hm with jas and sy aft that.
ah. i feel so nice with jasmine.
like i can tell her everything. :D

2009-03-03T22:51:00.001+08:00
I'M ODDLY CURIOUS!!!!!!!

does _ usually _ _ ?
i want to know.
if so, does _ has a _ ?
ZOMGGGGGGGG.

must be like,
side effects from reading the book. ;D

2009-03-03T22:31:00.002+08:00
haha. today was quite fun.

jeremy lent me a damn nice book.
i was obsessed about reading it. ._.

oh ya. ytd jinwee fell down.
and i heard someone shout: "WAH. 整块肉跑出来！“
then i went over and stupidly said: “THEN 那块肉在哪里？！我要看！！ “
HAHAHA.

i've always thought that the 肉 will drop out one.
until limbin told me it would'nt. -.-

and the book. damn nice.
its about a kid with mental problem.
interesting thinking. ;D

i lent it today.
and i finished it today. -happy-

2009-02-28T19:53:00.003+08:00
OMG.

OMGOMG SAVE ME FROM THIS ABNORMALITYYYYYY.

I actually think ___ is nice.
and infact i subconciously went to search on them on ____.
and i actually like the way ___ _______.
zomgomgomg.

omgomg. what.is.wrong.with.szeeng. D;

2009-02-28T19:37:00.003+08:00
yoohoo.

i think something is wrong with me.

MiyaviMiyaviMiyavi.

and his velvet voice.
omg. he makes talking sound like singing. =\

okay he kinds of make me respect guitar-players.

watch the one below. damn pro.

2009-02-28T17:48:00.001+08:00
okay i just realised something very bad.
my new profile looks like an obituary.
AHAHAHAHA.

okay nevermind. xD

i'm not really happy as i seem to be.

2009-02-28T15:30:00.002+08:00
yay. i changed lots of stuff.
i love my icon. hehe. so cute.

changed my song also. =X
i like lily allen.

Alfie - Lily Allen

Ooooo deary me,
My little brother's in his bedroom smoking weed,
I tell him he should get up cos it's nearly half past three
He can't be bothered cos he's high on THC.
I ask him very nicely if he'd like a cup of tea,
I can't even see him cos the room is so smoky,
Don't understand how one can watch so much TV,
My baby brother Alfie how I wish that you could see.

[Chorus]
Oooooo I only say it cos I care,
So please can you stop pulling my hair.
Now, now there's no need to swear,
Please don't despair my dear Mon Frere.

Ooooo Alfie get up it's a brand new day,
I just can sit back and watch you waste your life away
You need to get a job because the bills need to get paid.
Get off your lazy arse,
Alfie please use your brain
Surely there's some walls out there that you can go and spray,
I'm feeling guilty for leading you astray,
Now how the hell do you ever expect that you'll get laid,
When all you do is stay and play on your computer games?

[Chorus]

Oh little brother please refrain from doing that,
I'm trying to help you out so can you stop being a twat.
It's time that you and I sat down and had a little chat,
And look me in the eyes take off that stupid fitted cap.

[Chorus]

Please don't despair
Please don't despair
My dear Mon Frere
--------------------------------------------------

HAHAHA. i love this song also. xD
sounds cute.

2009-02-28T09:47:00.003+08:00
woohoo. today is a nice day. :D

2009-02-27T22:17:00.002+08:00
today was quite fun. :D

went to delia's house to do ME proj.
played charade there.
alot of weird but nice stuff happened.

then while i was there.
i saw something that made me feel skeptical about _.
then i tried to investigate. but fail. haha.

went home.
then saw some other weird things. -.-

stoned in the room.
for awhile.
contemplated the consequences.

then did what i decided to do.
i dont know if that's a mistake.
oh shucks. i'll probably regret it sometime in the future.

define; crush.
a feeling of infatuation that will not last for a long time.

lets hope the feeling dies soon.
so i wont do anymore selfish stuff.
grr.

don't mistake it.
i'm not doing it for you.

2009-02-27T20:43:00.002+08:00
oh yeah.
clarification post.

there are some things people can control, and there are some things which can't be controlled.
emotions cant be controlled.

often i know i should'nt be feeling angry or jealous, but i'm still like that.
it's of human nature.
it's only natural that i feel this way.

and this dosent means i don't try to control my emotions.
jinwee told me "you will explode one day. "
i'm going to explode now.

into a million tiny pieces.

i realise my fault before i go and find out about others;
this is only right.
i clear up my thoughts straight.

the things that make me angry don't just come and go.
they accumulate until i realise someone just don't click with me.

i try to trust and shut things out but when there are too many factors
leading to mistrust, i shut down.
then i stop trusting that person.

yea. some kind of friend am i, not even trusting you.
but you know what?
you gave me reasons not to.
and i wont tell you the reasons cuz i know they are perfect.
and you're supposed to realise them yourself.

a lack of inference skills will fail you in social skills.

2009-02-27T20:27:00.002+08:00
i'm not jealous. or envious.
i dont give a damn if you keep him for a pet or whatnot.

you know, you proved EXACTLY my point!
these things may seem minor to you.
but they are major to me.
cuz these are the things that reflects your attitude.

you know what?
for this time, its actually my fault.

this time, i'm the unreasonable one.
you did nothing wrong.
ah, i'm really serious about this.

i can't make people change because of me.
even regret wont do any use.
you are what you are, and i cant change you.

so thats it.
we just don't click.
i know my faults.
i know i have many, including those that you've said.

but do you know yours?

oh yeah, you can actually let me speak to that senior of yours.
i'm sure she'll understand me.
i know my side of the story, and your side, too.
but do you know mine?

this is nothing of what i'd like to choose.
and i'm not jealous.
not NOW, anyway.
i once was.

and havent i once told you.
i dont even dare to talk to you?
i'm so afraid of what you might say, that i just ignore you.
coz i'm afraid you might say something that i end up thinking for the whole day.
and that actually happened afew times-

i used the staircase behind the study area as my venting area.
thats why i go missing sometimes.

isnt this clear enough for you?

i've told you everything once.
but you didnt caught everything.

and now it's my fault.
yea. totally.

2009-02-22T22:18:00.003+08:00
TODAY IS FUN! :D

went to sijia and janice's tution in the morning.
the tution tcher quite nice.
might considering transferring.

but i like my current class also leh. :D

when the class was about to end, this handsome sec4 walked in.
walao. really quite handsome lo. :3

then went to change clothes and lunch.
tied hair for like, an hour?
then went to school.

tried to ~~mess up~~ style alot of people's hair.
i screwed up siewru's one. completely. LOL.
and OH YA. and i never anyhow touch people lor.
HAHA.

zoom.
was discussing about mr ngor's picture in SCH when he suddenly walked in.
LOLOL.

went in the hall. and quite cool.
i didnt fell. :D
everyone said i was too loud.
but seriousssss?
i was hitting very lightly alr. );

then moved out.
sat on bus back to school.

after packing everything,
we took section photos~ :D
got 4 photos.

took a damn nice-but-too-blur formal photo.
walao. pity. i liked it lo. cuz the location quite nice.

then took some jumpshots also.
i was blocked by rebecca.
HAHAHA.

will try to get the photos from jas.
jiabo's pose is extremely funny in the jump shot.
HAHA. :3

then went home with jas. :D

2009-02-21T23:48:00.002+08:00
:D

today was quite fun.
but not the tutoring.
it was hard controlling some things.
then aft band. went rollerblading. :D
i lagged behind them.
then k. i think now i know how to roller blade alr.

fell down like, 4 times. ._.
aft that, went jp to eat.
then went home.

we like mad pple lo.
singing our parts for the stars and overture when we're walking to the bus stop at night. HAHA.

so nice to be playing and forgetting loads of things.
actually. i am not really envious or anything.
i'm really angry.
i've been trying not to.
trying too hard alr.

been withstanding since last year.
i can't stand people who say they're trying to help me when they are making things worse.
it's either they are too naive to realise what impact it has on me,
or they are doing it on purpose.

actually, i think __ is doing it on purpose.

i dont know why i'd suddenly bring this up again.
and i dont know where i got my confidence from.
i dont know why i'd think this way, but it feels right to me.

there's no other explanation.

this is actually the first time i've been like this.
there'd be a day in a week where i end up thinking about this.

i'd have alot of things to say but i dont know whom to tell it to.

i can't tell to the one i want, because _ took that person away.

2009-02-21T23:17:00.003+08:00
oh shit.

i hate you.
but i won't tell you.
i can't be bothered to.
this means i've given up on you.

you said you were trying to help.
rubbish.
i tried not to let myself be like this before but it's too much.

you're not helping.
you're killing me.
you're taking everyone that's around me for your own.

why not just keep your nose out.
pretend i've never told you anything.
i don't want to share anyone with you. no, not with you.

oh, right. you're not even sharing.
telling you stuff is my biggest mistake.
i could've never trusted you.

so, what huh.
something someone's after seems more desirable than what is placed for you?
is that the reason why you are doing this?

i don't care anymore.
i hate you.
i tried not to.
but it's too hard.

2009-02-20T21:42:00.002+08:00
oh, girl.

Are you sick; that pale face?
Are you sneezing; those red nose?
Are you hiccuping?

Why are you trembling?
Why are your eyebrows arched up high?
Why are your hands so cold?

oh, boy.

why does it takes so long to guess?
does my confidence had not shed enough?

only one hint; i'll give-
oh how my eyes keep flickering to keep you both apart-
how my heart stings with flames in wish to burn her alive.
i'd keep you to myself and all that i love.
but you're besotted by her and you let myself die.

Of what mesmerizing beauty she has to charm you that well?
i see no colours, i see no life.
i see no maturity, virtues and love in her eyes.

but oh, you're so besotted. so smittened.

oh why now, can't you tell?

oh girl,

there's no link, no love, no words to be spoken to you anymore.
all on your unrequited love only i give sympathy.

oh boy,

i don't need no sympathy from you.
in no positions, holding no rights.
i can't keep your love justified.

all i want, -though i still feel so weird-
is only for your well being.

please be happy.

so cool.
guess. where i took this from. :D

2009-02-15T10:06:00.001+08:00
i like gummy ~~blobs~~ bears. :D

2009-02-15T09:58:00.003+08:00
ytd was nice. :D

k. quite nice only. not very.
late for band. bad things happened during tutoring. D;

moved instru to hall aft that.
lost concentration. ._.
then survived until band ended.

oh ya. moving instru in 10 minutes is -.-!
i tot we were going to have to climb the walls to get out of sch alr. LOL.

then jx, sy and jas went to my mum's salon!
:D
jx and jas cut hair.

jx looks so nice now. HAHA.
oh ya. he has the chinese eight character de eyes. HAHAHA.
reminds me of eugene. hehe.

then went home with jas~ :D

oh ya. received alot of presents also. :D
thanks to sharon, mae, jx, aiyin, jas, chuning, sy. hahas.

2009-02-15T09:32:00.003+08:00
WALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i just woke up like, 1/2 hr ago.
and i had dreams about ___ again.

this time it was kinda worst,
with the hair-smelling, hugging and all.
and the location is very very... bad. );

at least i remained motionless and speechless. ._.

then there was this 2nd dream.
i forgot whom the person was.
but it's about _______ again.
walao. i don't like lo.

D;

i dont like.
dont like dont like dont like.

but in the dreams i am _______.
grr. ._.

2009-02-13T21:38:00.002+08:00
today.

quite fun.
maybe because of ______. :D

not quite fun also.
because of ________. D;

i spent the hours in lessons in agony.
pain like mad. ._.
cant even sleep.
the pain to too disturbing.
stupid lo.

tsktsk. cannot eat the medicine which helps to reduce the pain anymore.
i'm allergic to it. ._.

went to band aft sch.
k i'm certain of some negative stuff.
oh, so sad.
i think i'll go drown myself in pokemon drawings later.

people that have superiority complex is really problematic. ._.

2009-02-13T21:35:00.002+08:00
grr.

so i'm damn guailan.

so you think you can just do stuff wrongly and don't do corrections.

so you think i am being kpkb.

grr.

don't like you either.

go away.
far, far away. don't come back.

ew.

2009-02-06T21:28:00.003+08:00
i just started watching x-family.
AND I'VE BEEN LAUGHING LIKE MAD.
AHAHAHAHA.

THE STORYLINE'S SO DAMN HILARIOUS
IT'S DAMN RANDOM.

AND AND..

THIS GUY SO SHUAI RIGHT.

BUT ACCORDING TO THE STORYLINE IF SOMEONE GET KISSED BY HIM,
THEY'LL SUFFER FROM 3 DAY PREGNANCY. LOLOL. WTH. I'M LIKE, SUFFERING FROM
LAUGHTER HAHAHA.

2009-02-06T19:16:00.002+08:00
ZOMGGGGGGG.

so.so.so.guilty.
i lectured the sec1s today.

breaking something on one's first day is such a bad thing.

;O
guilty like mad.

went home with jas, sy, jotham and weishen.
and and and right.
i was teasing ws about his stalker waiting for him to go home with a pot of heart shaped rice,
and suddenly there was this romantic music on the tv. HAHAHAH.

wl. was at band halfway then vincent and wj went home. D;
only xiu yi was with me.

ohoh and anw. yonglay accused me of ______ and ________.
and almost the whole class thinks its true now.
WLLLLLLLL.
i dont even know myself if what he've said is true anot lo. -.-

ohya. the instructor abit fememine. =\
~~wearing purple sumore.~~

teasing weishen is such a nice thing. :D
and no, ws, i don't want to see _____'s underwear. -.-!

2009-01-31T20:29:00.004+08:00

Oh. you were busy talking to her.
that's right.

i forgot.

i forgot that you only care about her.

2009-01-31T18:01:00.004+08:00
okay. got tagged by marion.
i'm supposed to say 16facts about myself.
and tag 16 people. but lazy to tag la. LOL.

Fact #1: i have a Hello Kitty bedsheet.

Still using it nao. :D

Fact #2: i don't like hamsters.

they only look cute lo. -.-
quite useless. cannot jog or play with the owner.

Fact #3: i like porridge.

Fact #4: i like long hair.

Fact #5: i like cute babies/bunnies.

okay. notice the "CUTE" word there.

Fact #6:
i like guys who sit like..

this..
HAHA. weijie and kelila said it was gay tho.
REALLY MEH. i think it's quite nice lo. =\
gentlemanly, no?

Fact #7:
... i dont like really strawberries. =\

i like blueberries tho.

Fact #8:
i dont like touchy-touchy dramas.

like koizora.
i skipped alot of parts for that one. =X

Fact #9:
Green tea kills sperms.

OKAY.
i know this is not a fact about me.
BUT. quite cool right. :D

Fact #10:
my next pair of spects will be red and orange in colour.

OMGGG. don't even know why i choose it.

Fact #11:
i like to draw uni-brows on people.

i'm kinda obsessed with eyebrows. HAHA.
or maybe not. :3

Fact #12:
i like shiny things.

Jasmine said she wanted to buy aluminum foil for my birthday. -.-!!

Fact #13:
I dont like fizzy drinks.

yeah. no coke, F&N, sprite, pepsi or whatnot.
i used to like sprite ice, tho. =X

Fact #15:
i just totally skipped Fact #14.
:D

Fact #16:
Handphones in pockets kills sperms, too.

okay. i know this because Ms Chan told the whole class that. on friday.
HAHAH. she said tht if someone put their hp at their breast pocket, then will tio breast cancer.
O.O!!

2009-01-31T17:49:00.002+08:00

You Are 44% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

haha. anw ytd i dropped my memory card into the music room.
then went to find tchers to help me open the door. =\

omg today was quite fun.
____ gave the tutor a facial expression that looks like the "deadly stare".
HAHAHA.
aft that, stayed back for capt's ball.
fun~~ :D
in attempt to not let me catch the ball, sy grabbed my hand.
then i grabbed weijie's.
then he grabbed Boon siong's.
LOL.

then jasmine and me kept laughing thruout.
HAHAHA.

:D

2009-01-30T23:59:00.001+08:00
omg. this week alot of things happened.

today was damn dramatic, too.
series of bizarre problems. -.-

and tutoring tmr.

will update tmr. :D

2009-01-25T16:23:00.002+08:00

What Szeeng Means: S is for Sensitive

S is for Sensitive

Z is for Zappy

E is for Exquisite

E is for Explosive

N is for Neglected

G is for Godlike

What Does Your Name Mean?

WOO. I AM GODLIKE. LOLOLOL. :D
(at the same time, neglected. -.- )

You Are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.

You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.

Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

i like milk chocolate. :D

You Are Scrabble

You are incredibly clever and witty. You can talk your way out of (and into) situations easily.

You are an excellent decision maker. You are good at weighing the options in front of you.

You're the type of person who can make something out of nothing. You are very resourceful.

You know a lot of things. Most importantly, you know when people are wrong - even when they won't admit it.

What Board Game Are You?

andand; watch watch.

I LIKE HIS COSTUME LOOOOOOOOL.

2009-01-24T16:43:00.002+08:00

SEESEESEESEE. SO CUTEEEEEEEEE.
i want a robot like 01. =X

2009-01-24T16:27:00.002+08:00
guys that try to pretend they're confident when they're actually all unsure and shy are so cute.
and guys that are cute are so <3!>
(especially when it shows on their face)
but over confidence can be a problem.

WL. Tenjou Nightttttt.
D;
i want.

so sweet, so romantic and everything.
urgh. i'm going crazy. :D

tutoring today.
got critisized like crazy. =\
practice practice practice.
will update ltr abt ytd. :D

2009-01-24T01:29:00.003+08:00
SADISTICCCCCCCCC. oh,oh,oh.

2009-01-22T21:04:00.003+08:00
:D

monday
---------------------------------

Had band~
i dont like to move instruments FOR THEM.
argh.

since they promised then maybe it's okay.

tuesday
--------------------------------

THE CHINA STUDENTS CAME. ZOMGZOMG.
my buddy was called Han Lin, i think. ._.
i could'nt really understand what she's saying most of the time.
so most of the conversations ended with me just nodding my head.

-nods-

HAHA.
and elvin's buddy quite handsome lor.

brought them to the comp lab for PW.
then delia's buddy was searching for shuai ge online.
wth. -.-!

during recess, we brought them around the school.
when we reached the basketball court, some of the sec1s were playing basketball.

elvin's buddy: "AH! BASKETBALL! " (he said it in english)
me and yixin: "WOAH! "

HAHAHA.
then he chionged to play bball.
cool. theres a scar on his arm. wonder what happened. ._.

brought them back to library for their english lesson.
then actually ms chan allowed us to stay. :D
then mr phor came in and said we werent allowed to skip lessions. D;

went back to them after school.
took photos.
then i gave my buddy a drawing!
(i didnt know i was supposed to give smth as a gift mah.)
then she gave me a chinese knot.
nice.

EH OMG COOL. MY BUDDY EMAILED ME.
LIKE. NOW. THE POPUP JUST CAME. OMG. -excited-
i go check now.

okay. I.E is proving to be slow.
OK IN ALR.

k back.
i can totally kill myself for being so bad in typing chinese. D;

-continues-
there was a performance by them after that.
the wushu one quite cool. alot of girls said he was handsome.

handsome meh. ._.

then after they left, elvin told me some shocking news. D;
apparently the shuai ge helped another guy take off clothes in the restroom.
ZOMG. and he touched elvin's arm/back like ___ !

after that i went to jp with jas and sy.
purely because i was so addicted to the green creature. =X
sy and jas's sis said the shop keeper was cute.
...
CUTE MEH.
eyes big only. -.-
ok la. maybe a little.
just a little. =X

cool day. :D

wednesday
-----------------------------
bandbandband~
argh. then it happened.
and this time it's on the bus.
and its about the same person.
ON THE BUS.

i wonder if anyone saw.
how embarressing.
it's the second time alr.

so pathetic.

thursday
---------------------------
today was kinda fun.
esp at the temple. COOL LAH.
there was a dragon spraying water thingy.
:3

took photos. ;D
then went to "reflections as bukit chengdu" or smth.
quite cool.
esp the movie we watched.
i tot smth scary would happen lo.
i held sunzhong's arm tightly with my 2 fingers.
just in case smth happens. LOL.

went back sch and went home~

-------------------------------------

class bonding tmr.
hmm. ._.
i'm out of games to play alr. LOL
will think of smth by tmr. ;D

2009-01-22T20:42:00.002+08:00
Me.

i'm not like her.
i get pretty serious from time to time.
i dont like to crap when i'm serious.

i dont like compelled tones.

from sadness it became anger.

argh.

this always happens.
and with your tone and whatnot, it became worse, my problems.

i don't think you know.
i don't think i'm going to ever tell you.

argh.

faltering.